Happy New Years everyone!
I hope that 2017 brought many great memories to many of you out there. I know that it definitely did for me. After graduating this past May 2017 from college, I have learned a lot about myself. I have been away to college for quite a bit of my life these past four years. Only spending about 3 months back at home for the summer, then back to school for 7 to 8-ish months with only few holiday breaks, is different from actually being back in the comfort of my parent's home on a daily. I noticed that even though my four years of college flew by for me, many things have happened at home while I was away. I am so grateful that the end of this past year I was able to be closer to my family, not just in distance, but also in our bond.
College was an amazing experience. After I graduated, I felt the fear of, what am I going to do with my degree? What can I even do that is exceptional? What sets me aside from someone else? How will I continue to learn and grow as an artist without creative classes to push me to do so? How will I stay motivated? What do I really love to do when it comes to fashion? How am I staying connected with fashion after I graduate? Yes. So many questions; however, where and when do I even begin to answer these questions. I think for me, it wasn't about answering the questions, it was if I was satisfied with the answer. In my mind, there is a concept called the "trickle effect". The trickle effect for me is, if I choose this then something will happen, or if I choose that then something else will happen. Eventually, my life will be different. Should I go to school next? Should I move away? Should I go abroad? Should I get a job in town, out of town? The thought of planning my future by my own liking is both freeing and scary because I don't know if I am doing anything right.
Even though these questions linger, and yes, maybe some might go unanswered, I feel like when and if I make a decision, I will not regret it. That is simply life. I am growing each day, and with this new year, I will continue to grow. I will continue to learn more about myself, and work on what I think will be the best. I will do my best so that I can not say "is this the best" because I will have hopefully done my best.
I have big dreams and ambitions that I am still chasing today. I began a mental reflection of my life after I graduated, and I think as a visual person, it might benefit me to write it down/type it down. Looking back on this past year, I've received so many gifts in the form of things, of support, of education, and of love from so many. This new year will be full of new experiences, and I will accept them with an optimistic smile.